update

It has been a long time i never update my blog, although i have many things want to express. From the time being, i already get used to keep those unhappy matters inside my heart. i will be leaving Manchester next week after my graduation ceremony, to be honest, i didn't feel excited or happy, maybe inside my deep heart, there was another trifle. Actually i am bother about my perspective, i know it is important not to lose it, but though at times, it has not been easy.

思念

为什么我又会想念你? 我从来没有想过思念会是一种痛苦. 你也会跟我一样吗？居然选择了就不要犹豫不决, 该放就放罢. 什么是爱? 我再也不能去理解它. 再也不敢轻易地踏入这条河. 失去你，我仿佛失去了一切，快要完成的拼图在一夜间毁了. 难道想你已经成为了一种习惯？如果时间能倒流，我不后悔能遇见你，我会更加地爱你. 一切只能听天由命罢.

爱

这一晚我又失眠了, 渐渐的我已经接受了失眠, 我只希望我能做回自己的我. 什么是爱? 难道我一直坚持的理念是错的吗？如果你坚持要放弃，我也不能做什么。 每一次都辛苦地来维持这段感情又有何意义？ 你说我给你的感觉就是我付出了而要得到回报. 有哪一个人付出了不想得到回报？ 我只想要一段简单爱，只想要得到你的关怀，那也有错吗？ 爱是要互相维持的，你已放弃了，单靠一个拍子是打不响的。我知道要放下是件不容易的事，但居然选择了，就不应该回头去看。

Manchester Life

I've started my new life at here after finished my diploma at PSDC. This week is the 3rd week i am here, but i still cannot get used to the life at here, especially time? haha, maybe i got home sick? i miss my family, car, food, bed and HER as well :) I had felt the stress in the first class, we have to go through an unit without paper, The Apprentice, what the hell is that? OMG...i know my family members put high expectation on me, especially my mum, i knew she is so worried about me, because this is the first time i left my sweet home, don't worry mum, i won't disappoint you, i promise you that i will work hard from time to time.

People are admired with the life you had, but they never know how much effort you've attempted. We will never gained without efforts, there is no regret with the road you're going.

父亲节

昨天跟朋友聊起时才知道今天是父亲节，虽然我知道这已经不能改变了，但是永别这么久了，我还是会想起你。为什么你要离我们而去？要在年早就剥去弟弟们的父爱，看到妈妈如此地辛苦养大我们, 真想可以让她早日休息。爸，原本这7月24你就可以看见我毕业了, don't worry, this is just begining, i will work harder :)

lastly, i wish you HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

mistake

i had did a mistake today, i don't know why i want to do this, maybe is because i was too care on you. I've no idea how i want to get your forgiveness, but i got no regret on this decision. Maybe you will think that you no want your family get worry on you, but some times attentions from family is the most important when you get into trouble. I'm not hope for your forgiveness, but in one day later you will understand why i did this.....

决定

今天的我真的好累, 把自己搞得这样累但是我的心还是想着你, 居然已经决定了就应该坚持, 因为我知道你的心里已有了别人了, 我知道也許這個決定會讓我後悔，但与其长痛不如短痛, 毕竟我们都没有开始过, 当初不应该见到你, 结局就不是这样的，就这样画上句号罢.