爱

这一晚我又失眠了, 渐渐的我已经接受了失眠, 我只希望我能做回自己的我. 什么是爱? 难道我一直坚持的理念是错的吗？如果你坚持要放弃，我也不能做什么。 每一次都辛苦地来维持这段感情又有何意义？ 你说我给你的感觉就是我付出了而要得到回报. 有哪一个人付出了不想得到回报？ 我只想要一段简单爱，只想要得到你的关怀，那也有错吗？ 爱是要互相维持的，你已放弃了，单靠一个拍子是打不响的。我知道要放下是件不容易的事，但居然选择了，就不应该回头去看。

Manchester Life

I've started my new life at here after finished my diploma at PSDC. This week is the 3rd week i am here, but i still cannot get used to the life at here, especially time? haha, maybe i got home sick? i miss my family, car, food, bed and HER as well :) I had felt the stress in the first class, we have to go through an unit without paper, The Apprentice, what the hell is that? OMG...i know my family members put high expectation on me, especially my mum, i knew she is so worried about me, because this is the first time i left my sweet home, don't worry mum, i won't disappoint you, i promise you that i will work hard from time to time.

People are admired with the life you had, but they never know how much effort you've attempted. We will never gained without efforts, there is no regret with the road you're going.

父亲节

昨天跟朋友聊起时才知道今天是父亲节，虽然我知道这已经不能改变了，但是永别这么久了，我还是会想起你。为什么你要离我们而去？要在年早就剥去弟弟们的父爱，看到妈妈如此地辛苦养大我们, 真想可以让她早日休息。爸，原本这7月24你就可以看见我毕业了, don't worry, this is just begining, i will work harder :)

lastly, i wish you HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

mistake

i had did a mistake today, i don't know why i want to do this, maybe is because i was too care on you. I've no idea how i want to get your forgiveness, but i got no regret on this decision. Maybe you will think that you no want your family get worry on you, but some times attentions from family is the most important when you get into trouble. I'm not hope for your forgiveness, but in one day later you will understand why i did this.....

决定

今天的我真的好累, 把自己搞得这样累但是我的心还是想着你, 居然已经决定了就应该坚持, 因为我知道你的心里已有了别人了, 我知道也許這個決定會讓我後悔，但与其长痛不如短痛, 毕竟我们都没有开始过, 当初不应该见到你, 结局就不是这样的，就这样画上句号罢.

奇迹

昨天听你说你要等待奇迹的出现, 你的奇迹我听了简直是晴天霹雳, 不知道是要为你高兴还是伤心, 也许你的奇迹会使到我们的机会越来越渺茫, 但是我在这里祝福你的奇迹会发生.

父母

今天我的同事告诉我如今当爸爸的不要放太大的期望给你的孩子， 他说时代变了， 孩子们不会报答父母亲的养育之恩，回家只会要钱. 长大十八变，长了翅膀就到处飞，结婚时也只回来说一声。其实有哪个父母不想把孩儿们留在身边？身为孩子的，又有几个能明白做父母的辛苦？身为父母的，又有几个能了解孩子们的心声？

父母亲辛苦的把我们养大，我们应该好好的报答他们。家永远是最好的避风港。

妈，我爱你！！

选择

选择在人生中扮演着一个很重要的角色，我讨厌做选择，但无论如何都要做出一个决定， 往往人们在做选择时都会犹豫不决，没有了选择也不是一件好事。
1.) local university ( save cost )
2.) 1 year degree at oversea ( save time, but not the choice i want)
3.) 2 years degree at oversea ( i can choose what i like, but take longer time)
4.) 2 years degree + master ( save time, X choice )
5.) part time study
6.) continue working ( need at least 1 year contract )

which one i should choose? sometimes it's hard to make decision, but anyhow we should overcome it.

Immature

yesterday somebody said my minded is too immature, haha, anyway i felt happy with it, first time people said i'm childish, haha. how does full grown people thinking? nobody has a perfect thinking ok. Although you always act like perfect, sometimes you still show your immature thinking, this is not mature or not, but somehow it's control by your feeling, heart and brain. Besides that, I'm not going to ask her information from you, so don't worry about me, i'll always cheer up myself.

p/s: love is just a partial of life, don't fall down because of it.....i just want a simple life, the life that includes of YOU !!

第一天

今天是你离去的第一天, 本来早上要打给你跟你告别的, 但是工作忙碌, 而且头也很痛, 昨晚没睡好, 唱了一晚的伤心情歌, 接酒消愁, 才睡不到4个钟. 但是最后我还是鼓起勇气打给你了, 可惜的是打不通, 应该是没收讯罢. 做工回来虽然很累，但我还是去了打球，有可能在球场上才能让我发泄罢。我一直很后悔为什么没有去做.... 真的好累好累.....好了吧，男人扛得起要放得下，不要再萎缩了，想要做就去做吧。i will always support you from here....

feeling

很久没在这里写东西了, 不知道为什么今天特别很想把心里的话写出来. 我知道明天你将会离去, 我的心是多么的难受, 这种感觉还是我人生中的第一次, 我真的很想把这一切都告诉你, 但是我真的再也没勇气跟你说, 之前我为你细心准备的一切, 你尽然一次又一次的敷衍了我, 但我也不能怪你, 因为我知道这不关你的事, 有可能这是天意罢. 你知道吗, 每当我要打电话给你时都需要考虑15分钟, 实在没勇气按下去, 但深了两口气, 我还是打了给你, 但是不知道为什么我所计划好要说的都说不出来, 没聊两句就挂了. 其实每天我都很期待你的简讯，当我看到你的简讯时，我都觉得很开心。每次跟你出来时都会觉得你很不开心, 我真的很想帮你分担, 但我知道你经历过很多, 再也不会轻易喜欢上一个人. 我们曾经同班过3年，其实在那时候我已经有少许的喜欢上你. 写到这里也累了，用华文写很累，应该是太久没用汉语拼音了。

p/s : 一路顺风，两年很快就过了，我们明年再见 :(
你只要记得有个人会在这里无时无刻的支持你.